Sorry I wasn't in class for the past couple weeks. As you might've heard, I was a little indisposed. Still on the fence about tonight as well, since I want to get this thing sorted.
[Things had been quite tumultuous for some time, so Toby doesn't hold it against Clary that she hadn't checked in.]
I'll just have to get used to the bond between us. I doubt there's much more that I can do, really. What happened between us was terrifying, but it isn't just his fault. He tries to make it seem he's the only one to blame. He isn't. So I'm going to try making amends with him. I guess I'll see where things go from there.
If he didn't mention, please don't bring it up with him. Ever since he killed me, I felt this anger and hatred inside. Those feelings weren't mine, but they felt just as real. They made me ill. He later explained that it's a pack bond. A connection between us that wasn't supposed to happen.
I know he's normally a sweet man. But I wronged him, and I deserved his anger. I won't argue if you don't believe me. I have no reason to be angry with him, even now. Actually, I never had any to begin with.
Whether or not he knew what he was doing, I don't know. I caught his scent while wandering Heropa, and had promised him sometime before that I wouldn't bother him. So I turned away, but he came after me. Chased me into the wooded part of the park. He attacked me, and I tried to fight back. I lost the fight. But that's only what happened on that night. I wronged him well before that. I don't blame him for any of this.
It's all right. I mean, I obviously had no idea you were friends with him. I don't know that would've changed anything between him and me. But you can't possibly be faulted with any of this. Besides, it's as I said. I'm trying to make up with him.
You certainly do seem to have a knack for it. I do wonder why that is.
[A similar pause.]
I don't know. Is he talking to you at all recently? In spite of what happened, I don't want him painting himself the villain. Perhaps if there's a way to convince him of that.
he hasn't spoken to me since he announced it on the network. i know less than you. i can't figure out if it's a werewolf thing. if i was better i'd know.
Better at what? [Not like he knows about her being a Shadowhunter.] You're a good friend, if that's what you mean. I wouldn't want to cause a rift between us, or you and him. If I get a chance to talk to him, because I will try to get one, I'll let you know what comes of it.
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As you might've heard, I was a little indisposed.
Still on the fence about tonight as well, since I want to get this thing sorted.
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you can borrow my notes, it's okay.
what are you going to do?
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I'll just have to get used to the bond between us.
I doubt there's much more that I can do, really.
What happened between us was terrifying, but it isn't just his fault.
He tries to make it seem he's the only one to blame. He isn't.
So I'm going to try making amends with him.
I guess I'll see where things go from there.
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[ Drew hadn't mentioned a bond.
Of course, that's because he spent a lot of their conversation trying to convince her he was a terrible person. It seems Toby could understand that. ]
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Ever since he killed me, I felt this anger and hatred inside.
Those feelings weren't mine, but they felt just as real.
They made me ill. He later explained that it's a pack bond.
A connection between us that wasn't supposed to happen.
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are you sure they were coming from him?
[ Because if they are, she's pretty sure that's a problem. ]
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But I wronged him, and I deserved his anger.
I won't argue if you don't believe me.
I have no reason to be angry with him, even now.
Actually, I never had any to begin with.
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i couldn't get any sense out of drew.
did he know what he was doing?
[ Because that's important. ]
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I caught his scent while wandering Heropa, and had promised him sometime before that I wouldn't bother him.
So I turned away, but he came after me. Chased me into the wooded part of the park.
He attacked me, and I tried to fight back. I lost the fight.
But that's only what happened on that night.
I wronged him well before that.
I don't blame him for any of this.
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It's awful. ]
i'm sorry, toby.
i wish i could have been there to help.
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I don't know that would've changed anything between him and me.
But you can't possibly be faulted with any of this.
Besides, it's as I said. I'm trying to make up with him.
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you know me, i always attract the creatures of the night.
[ A pause, and then -. ]
how can i help?
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I do wonder why that is.
[A similar pause.]
I don't know.
Is he talking to you at all recently?
In spite of what happened, I don't want him painting himself the villain.
Perhaps if there's a way to convince him of that.
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i know less than you.
i can't figure out if it's a werewolf thing.
if i was better i'd know.
[ What a failure of a Shadowhunter. ]
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You're a good friend, if that's what you mean.
I wouldn't want to cause a rift between us, or you and him.
If I get a chance to talk to him, because I will try to get one, I'll let you know what comes of it.
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yeah just keep me in the loop? and if you need me give me a call, okay?
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Thanks. For being there and wanting to help.
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